Poem: Doping

DOPING

When of winning there was no sight
When I had lost all hope
When I forgot what is wrong and right
Is when I planned to dope

But then my inner conscience knows
That even though I have won a gold
The thought stream that continually flows
Is that my self respect has been sold

The world calls me a hero, a star
But heart in hearts I am still not glad
I know the truth to be quite afar
And that drives me crazy and mad

Everyone around is proud of me
And I am the role model they want to follow
I have no idea what to do
But somewhere the success seems so hollow

“This can’t be happening to me, I hope it’s just a dream
I don’t want this to be happening; it’s a nightmare!”
Because now I realize that however sweet success may seem
This is not what I always dreamt of I swear

Now after realizing the true value of satisfaction
Which is the true basis of any success
There was this shortcut with such huge attraction
That it was so tempting I have to confess

This bitter fact I can forget never
The black clouds gone, I can now clearly see
The terrible thought that will haunt me forever
Is that there was someone more deserving than me

Kalla Siddharth
B.Tech 2nd year




This poem has an interesting history. I was working in the souvenir committee to make the souvenir for the 42nd Inter IIT sports meet to be held in IITG, and the first Inter IIT in IIT Guwahati. I was asking for suggestions from Ankit as to what to include in the contents of the souvenir, and he suggested that we include something on doping. Initially I thought about writing an article about it, but soon realized a good article would require technical knowledge beyond my limits!

And that's when I decided to write this poem, hardly sat for half an hour, and I still feel it is a very good replacement for the work I had to do for an article!